Every time I talk to you on the phone, I hang up frustrated, annoyed by your voice.
I'm trying to be less sensitive but the fact is that it's mostly always me compromising for you. I'm not going to do that any longer. I just want a nice guy.
We need to get to the root of the problem. I'm not sure where it is or what it looks like, but I know we need to find it soon. If we don't, we'll be lost forever.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Parenthood
I've been watching Parenthood on Netflix. What will I do when it's over? I'm halfway through season 2.
Watching a show like this secretly makes me want to move to LA to be a writer for a show. What? Where do I get these ideas?
But of course, there is the issue of the boyfriend whom I love. Growing up is complicated.
I love him and every show/rom com/chick flick tell me that I'm lucky to have someone who loves me back; however, it's so hard for me to just drop everything I want for me for the sake of being with him. Oh, I wish I were a little more romantic.
Deep down, I want romance and flowers, extravagant proposals, and the simple life BUT I am too stubborn to compromise all that for my own ambition.
I want to move to California. That's where my mind is set. If him and I stay together, I see my life moving to east Texas. What's there for me?
Watching a show like this secretly makes me want to move to LA to be a writer for a show. What? Where do I get these ideas?
But of course, there is the issue of the boyfriend whom I love. Growing up is complicated.
I love him and every show/rom com/chick flick tell me that I'm lucky to have someone who loves me back; however, it's so hard for me to just drop everything I want for me for the sake of being with him. Oh, I wish I were a little more romantic.
Deep down, I want romance and flowers, extravagant proposals, and the simple life BUT I am too stubborn to compromise all that for my own ambition.
I want to move to California. That's where my mind is set. If him and I stay together, I see my life moving to east Texas. What's there for me?
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Oops
I haven't eaten all day.
So, I just had 3 enchiladas and some rice. Greasy. And I have been eating pretty healthy for a couple of weeks so this has sent me for a loop.
I'm going to be sick.
The reason why I'm eating this is I'm broke and have no other food.
I went to the pharmacy today to get my BC and was declined. I checked my account and was in the red! I apparently paid my student loan twice this month and ended up in the negative. Oops.
And now I'm starved for food. I resorted to grease and I'm sick. Ugh.
So, I just had 3 enchiladas and some rice. Greasy. And I have been eating pretty healthy for a couple of weeks so this has sent me for a loop.
I'm going to be sick.
The reason why I'm eating this is I'm broke and have no other food.
I went to the pharmacy today to get my BC and was declined. I checked my account and was in the red! I apparently paid my student loan twice this month and ended up in the negative. Oops.
And now I'm starved for food. I resorted to grease and I'm sick. Ugh.
